Saturday, August 05, 2006

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

So much to blog and no brain to blog with

I have so many things to write about and I keep putting it off which just creates more of a problem. I feel like I can not concentrate long enough to put together a thought anyone else would understand. I don't know why I am so scrambled lately I just do. I also have not been taking enough photographs lately and it is sort of the same problem. I feel like every photo and every thing I write has to be artistic, beautiful, thoughtful......the list goes on. I don't know why I do this to myself and I know that by classifying things (photo's and words) as not good enough I am risking missing out on these memories all together. I actually have a post that I wrote at least a month ago that I still have not published because I just could not put the photo's with the post because they were not that good and I did not want to post the post with no pictures. So to end the rambling I have made a pact with myself to just post even if I think it's not that "good" and not think about who is reading this and what they will think but to just write what is happening or what I am feeling without over analyzing every aspect of it.

So on to catch up, my little Bobo has turned THREE! Some days she is still so much my baby and other days she is a little girl just like her sister. She has just entered a new phase of development in the past few days and I don't know what to call this phase other than insanity. From moment to moment there is no rhyme or reason. She wants to go swimming, considering the temperature that is very reasonable. Then the crazy part, are you ready, her hair is wet oh my god the panic set's in "mama dry my hair" lots of tears "dry my hair". Then I want to wear underpants, great, terrific, oh wait 30 seconds later you want a diaper, then a minute late no you want underpants definitely underpants oh wait you do want diapers. You get the idea I won't numb your mind with the endless dialogue that follows the same pattern all day. At least only one of them is going through this manic behavior Ella is rewarding me with some very good big girl behavior, a display of behavior that makes me wonder how I could have ever yelled at her or punished her and if she is in fact really four.

Another big development is the low ratio of little girls to soothies. Anyone who has ever been in our house has seen the embarrassingly large collection of soothies which our girls coveted. Ella had at least 12 in her possession at all times and Bobo was not far behind. But the soothie hoarding is now a thing of the past as of Wednesday July 26th at exactly 12:00 noon when we packed the car except for the soothies and headed for grandma Ann's lake house in New Hampshire with only one soothie in each girls bag which will only be allowed contact with there lips at bedtime and naptime. O.K so the plan was to leave them all behind but I just could not stomach the idea of no soothies at bedtime. If any family member would like to volunteer for duty on the night that the last soothie leaves or house let me know ASAP and the soothies will be gone. I just break out in a cold sweat thinking about it, I need a little more time to prepare at least that's what I tell myself. But even though they are not all gone I feel like that was a giant step and I am proud of us all.

I would lastly like to thank everyone who sent such lovely gifts to Bobo on her big day. This is not your official thank you (you will receive them in the mail) but since some time has elapsed I just wanted everyone to know that Bobo received your gifts and loved them her mother is just slow with the Thank You's. (and she apologizes for this)

Then lastly but certainly not least we had a wonderful visit with Nana and Papa. We all had a great time (I have included some photo's from the visit) and it's a shame we don't get to do it more often! Nana and Papa took care of the girls on Sunday evening so mom and dad could get some always needed and always appreciated more than you know alone time. The report upon our arrival home was of two good girls and I hope this is true. I know what a handfull they can be and I hope they charmed there grandparents on there last night here so that Nana and Papa will want to visit again!